February 2012
10 posts
dreams...
I keep having these strange dreams…
Where I’m happy, I’m with someone… yet when we kiss. I can’t breathe. It almost hurts to kiss them… My lungs close up, and I feel like I am drowning. It’s scary. It makes me wonder if i still even know how to kiss, or know what it feels like…
November 2011
7 posts
I should not expect anything more
or anything less….
than what i have.
This is where i should be. I’m here for a reason…
i need to accept this.
Stupid stupid
I really hate feelings.
Why can’t people just be straight forward. Straight forward. Say what you mean, mean what you say. Be faithful to your feelings.
I am just so frusterated.
How hard is it to say what you want.
Stick with it.
Words cannot describe my frustration right now.
I feel like im grasping at sand, sand that was never mine to begin with.
This is so stupid. Why am I...
ggrr.
for one day i deserve to feel guilt free.
For one day i deserve not to feel like crap.
For one day i deserve not to feel like my entire world might collapse around me.
For one day i deserve not to worry EVERY SECOND OF EVERY FUCKING DAY.
“one plays the part of the fool in hopes they will one time end up being the wise...”
Just my imagination...
I’ve gotten very good at imagining things. I can imagine that I’m a different person. I can stare into the mirror at my face and forget the present. I can pretend that i’m strong. And i believe it. I can pretend some of the mistakes i made, i actually haven’t made. For a minute. I can believe it. I can see it. I can feel it.
I can imagine seeing someone who is happy to...
“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long. I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it—I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger...
October 2011
2 posts
Connection
Don’t ask me why I feel this way. I wish i knew. I know in my head I am being irrational, really. I can feel the irrationality going through ever fiber in my being. Yet, I can’t stop thinking, stop wondering, stop wishing. Wishing i was somewhere else. Wishing i was something different. Wishing i was healthy. Wishing that i didn’t feel this overwhelming sense to be near you....
July 2011
1 post
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April 2011
6 posts
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Waiting
I have yet to meet anyone who understands…
August 2010
1 post
July 2010
4 posts
April 2010
1 post
January 2010
4 posts
“Weddings are a fairytale I’ll never belong in.”
I don't love you
Love.
Why. Why. Why.
I never understood it
I always wondered, if i didn’t know the word love or an explanation for it at all would I even feel it?
What evil human being conjured up this word that pains so many people? I know it doesn’t always cause pain, but it seems in the end it usually does.
Why do we let a heart love at all if we know this will happen? How come love...
New years resolutions
I know new years resolutions are cheesy as hell, but nothing is going to change if i dont at least attempt. The bolded ones are what i feel are more important.
1. Be more trusting
2. Be more trustworthy
3. Compromise more
4. See the good in people. Everytime someone asks you about someone what is the first thing you say? Something bad right. For now on I’m going to say only good.
5....
oh so happy
girl: happy new years, love you babe
boy: you forgot your pillow here
December 2009
62 posts
Love is not love...
fuckyeahhlove:
Sonnet 116
Let me not to the marriage of true minds Admit impediments. Love is not love Which alters when it alteration finds, Or bends with the remover to remove: O no! it is an ever-fixed mark That looks on tempests and is never shaken; It is the star to every wandering bark, Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and...
fuckyeahhlove:
Hold my breathe and take my lips, A sensation beneath my finger tips, Keep your laugh at a modest tone, Until I’m with you all alone. Linger through my distorted heart, Collect the pieces part by part, Light them up with burnt out matches, Use the ash to close the patches, trickle down my melodious soul, Make my mind a luscious… knoll, Stiffen up my shaky knees, Brew my blood...
